It’s 8am again people. Mum just woke me up again on the phone, and as per usual her first words were “are you still in bed?!!”
My Mum is a morning person. She gets up at 6am in the morning and brings me toast when I stay at her house. Not that I don’t appeciate toast, it’s just that 6am is not my optimal operating time. As we all know.
Anyway. She was calling because we hung out at the beach yesterday and I was venting my frustration over my weight. I mean, I go to the gym 3-4 times a week for anywhere between 1-2 hours. I do Taekwon Do twice a week. I walk EVERYWHERE. I’m literally on my feet walking for an hour every day – often longer. I do eat some crap, and I constantly crave sugar and carbs, but I honestly can’t afford to eat a LOT of crap. Generally my diet is ok.
And yet I’m still gaining weight. I weigh the most I’ve ever weighed today.
I weighed the most I’d ever weighed last week.
I weighted the most I’d ever weighed the week before at the doctors office.
Why in the hell can’t I lose weight!? I mean, I’ve always had a SHIT time at losing weight. I find it easy to gain muscle, and easy to gain weight, but REALLY hard to lose weight. I also gain it all around my tummy and back – I’m an apple. That’s just my body type. But at the moment it’s like its magnified or something.
It’s so fucking frustrating. The blood tests I had showed up nothing unusual – they tested for thyroid issues. The doc wants to have to have more done that look at hormone issues.
Anyways. The medication that I’m on is an SSRI – Fluoxitine. When you first go on them it helps kill your appetite, but the longer you’re on them, the more people start saying that they’re constantly feeling hungry, and gaining weight. Unfortunately all my research in this area is via doctor google, so I really should talk to my actual doctor about it.
Anyway. I’m gaining weight it’s fucking frustrating, and it’s killing my confidence. (Also my wardrobe. I’ve just realised that I only packed black clothing for this trip. I literally only have one coloured top with me.)
And I was venting all of this to Mum, and she was online this morning and found a 12 week programme at a gym in Wellington, that uses nutritionists, personal trainers, massage, and a fitness programme to help kick-start weightloss, and she wanted to know if I wanted to do it.
Even though it was 8am in the morning I said YES. Even morning bear knows a good thing when she hears it.
So tell me, do you have any experience with antidepressants and weightgain/ loss? Any advice to share?