I have a fear.
Last years spectacular slide into numbness, apathy, and depression was accompanied by the seasons sliding into winter. You see there’s this thing called seasonal affective disorder, which most people shorten to SAD (Which is basically the most unhappy acronym in the world.)
Depression for me, was definitely made that little bit darker by the cold and the cool winter light. Also by the fact that some days I never even bothered to open my curtains. (Which does make you wonder, how much of my SAD was self inflicted.)
My fear is this: Now winter is here again, and as the sun sinks down over my city, I’m scared. I already feel it dragging my mood down some days. I haven’t pulled an all-day pity party yet, wrapped up in my depression-era clothes, and a couple of quilts, but my mornings are definitely slower.
On the other hand, I’m awake an functioning by 8 every morning. It’s no longer a struggle to get my eyes open and stay awake, BUT it definitely takes me a couple of hours to get dressed and be ready to leave the house.
I have this ritual that I do every morning that I can’t seem to make myself get out of my PJ’s. I start with my makeup. My eyes in particular. I find some bright pretty eyeshadow, and make myself look spectacular. I’m talking three coats of mascara spectacular.
Then I’ll feel kind of stupid standing there with my bed-hair and a robe, so I’ll tame my hair back into some kind of order. Then I’ll accessorize, with some jewelery that makes me feel badass and rock-chic.
Then I’ll feel ridiculous for still being in a robe, and I’ll dig out some actual clothes.
It’s a good routine. And it’s fun, which I think it the important bit. My therapist is forever telling me to make room in my life for fun.
So, do you have a routine that helps you get up and go in the morning?